hurrah, its now legal to for same sex couples to get married in belgium! brussels is looking more and more attractive every day :-) but then again one of the spouses has to be a belgian citizen. but still, its great news!
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posted at 12:58 p.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
Thursday, January 30, 2003
music right now: 'it takes more' by ms dynamite
i LOVE this song so much. ms dynamite is ace, and i swear, this is the sweetest hip-hop song i've heard in a long time. its got a great beat and a good message behind it. its a corker, thats for sure.
so, in between my school work, actual work, watching american idol, barely seeing my friends and sleeping, i have become slowly addicted to coupling. this is the funniest show i've seen in a long time. omg, the second series finale is sooooooooo funny. 'i am giselle *whip snap* i am a french bitch!'. that gets me giggling every time i think of it. i LOVE jane. she is sooooooo funny. omg, you guys should see this show, considering its being imported (and unfortunately fucked up. like who the fuck puts breckin meyer in anything???! he's such a twat) and you'll here more about the lame american imitation in the future. beware of imitations!
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posted at 1:53 a.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
Wednesday, January 29, 2003
i'm depressed right now. i didn't get into the poetry workshop i applied for. this isn't a happy moment for me. i feel like i've been told that i'm not good enough, and i've never had anyone ever say that about my writing. i would rather have them tell me why i wasn't good enough, rather than a little consolitory email saying 'sorry, try again next time'. i don't know if i'll have the ambition to write for the next little while. this sucks. and i just had a great idea for something to write... but its not gonna happen right now. i am so pissed off, depressed and a whole bunch of things. like i always thought deep down that maybe i was good enough, but this is sort of just a validation of what i always feared. oi. i want constructive criticism, not a bullshit little note.
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posted at 9:11 p.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
music right now: 'national steel' by kathleen edwards
we saw two movies about leonard cohen in can. lit. ii today. i admire that man a lot, but he used to be so incredibly pretentious when he was young. man, i really didn't like him. but he's totally mellowed with age, which is great. after all, he is one of the best poets i've ever read.
speaking of poetry, i wrote a new poem. i'm not sure what to call it. suggestions? anyway, i will say one thing - yes, it is about someone (not an ex-boyfriend though), and i could care less if he finds out. i really don't know what to say to him, but here is the poem. i wrote this i think in the span of like five minutes while shaving and getting ready for bed (i shave sometimes at night in order to save time in the morning). so, enjoy! (or don't. its your call)
untitled (for now)
you said you'd seen me
and i was beautiful
and yes i never knew
how pretentious you were, you are,
that fact is true
one question remains
why you took the train
up out of the blue
that one random day
i lied when i said
i couldn't let you fuck me
'cos in reality you'd done just that,
you'd made me a fool;
you took something more valuable
than every ounce of love in me,
you took what i cannot get back,
you took that above
all else
i don't understand
and thirty years from now
i may not either,
why you do what you do
but i've seen you naked
yes its true
and i've also seen
right through you
so do what you will
and win that game you play,
experience the thrill
but know one thing,
i've seen right through you,
i've seen you naked
and what i saw was nothing at all,
an empty space,
a soul-less place,
nothing, yes nothing to embrace
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posted at 2:10 a.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
Tuesday, January 28, 2003
its official. i am addicted. i swear, this show is like crack.
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posted at 9:07 p.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
Monday, January 27, 2003
and since i'm such a twat and cannot do anything on time, happy australia day (even though it was technically yesterday)!. i'll get waitangi day right, i swear (its the national holiday of new zealand).
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posted at 10:42 p.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
to get me over the disappointment that was 'the hands that built america', i am now listening to 'troy' by sinead o'connor. wow, this song is amazing. it sounds fiona apple-ish in parts, but i have a long standing alliegance to sinead, so i shall say that it is possibly what fiona apple would sound like if she attempted to do sinead o'connor. sweet song though.
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posted at 8:57 p.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
music right now: 'the hands that built america' by u2
for one, this song is not that good. i don't know how it won a golden globe. u2 certainly have done better things that this before. for two, today has been a long day. thank god classes are over. i didn't have to go to the last class because it was cancelled, but i had no idea, so by the time i got there was a note saying it wasn't happening and i got frozen for no reason. oi.
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posted at 8:09 p.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
Sunday, January 26, 2003
music right now: 'the bitter end' by placebo
yay, they're streaming placebo's new single on their website. omg, i LOVE THIS SONG. its soooo incredible. i adore placebo so much. i think the one reason that they've never been big here and never will be is because of brian molko and the fact that he's so androgynous. north america doesn't really respond to androgynous men very well in this decade and the last. there is such this idea of the macho man and any guy that falls out of the category is seen as effeminate and a nancy and gay and shit that it totally shines a negative light. i still don't understand how david bowie (ziggy stardust-era) and the rolling stones, with mick jagger, were ever as huge as they were in north america because they go against the stereotypical masculine trend. hmmm.. this is interesting. i wonder if there has been research done on this.. oh, wait, there was that book, 'transgender warriors', that i think might have.
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posted at 11:34 p.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
Saturday, January 25, 2003
music right now: 'c'est pour toi' by dolly
i worked today. blah. thats all i can say about days on which i happened to have to work. double blah. but i'm going out tonight and i guess i'm happy. i have no idea why, but there is a part of me not wanting to go to unity again. i hope i don't see nick there again tonight. i just don't know if i can take seeing him a lot right now.
oh, placebo are releasing their new album in like a month and a half!!! i'm sooooooooo excited. its called 'sleeping with ghosts'. i cannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn't waiiiiiiiiiiiiiiitttttttttttttt!
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posted at 8:37 p.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
Thursday, January 23, 2003
music right now: 'swimming' by james newton howard (from the 'waterworld' soundtrack)
back to my bathtub revelation. the big thing i really want to do is find this beach i have in my head. i keep seeing it over and over again, when i close my eyes, i see it. i don't dream about it. but when i want to be calm, i shut my eyes and there it is. i want to be there. and when i put on certain music and lay in the bathtub, i feel the feeling of what it would be like to be there. i don't know how it would sound or how the sand and water would feel, nor how it would smell (though i always had this coconut-y smell in my mind), or anything like that. but i do have a feeling of it. and i want it to be out there somewhere. its like one of those things you know must be there and you want to search until you find it, until every little thing is right, until all the puzzle pieces fall into place. i want my beach. and i want to be there with someone. i don't know who. but i don't want to be there alone. after all, whats the most perfect place you can imagine worth when you can only see it alone? its like if you see a tree in a forest, does it really exist? like just because you experienced something does that mean it existed in reality, or only in your mind? am i only in my mind? are we all only in our own minds because we can only exist in our realities?
i'm a hypocrit and i know it. thank you leonard cohen. night.
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posted at 11:53 p.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
music right now: 'dy-na-mi-tee' by ms. dynamite
well, today has been a long day, but a few good things happened. one, i signed up for all my conferences. two, i sat with adam in can lit and he is so funny. he kept on going on about how prof. lecker looks like a turtle. plus he kept on giving me colour-changing gobstoppers. argh, there is this annoying bitch in the class. i swear, she is like in every english class and i can feel people bristle when they hear her voice when she asks questions. shes one of those teachers pet type students who ask stupid ass questions and you just want to throw a rock hard gherkin at their foreheads. arghhhhhhhhh.
and the other good thing that happened was that there is this guy in my pasolini class, and i call him brown guy, because he wears a lot of brown, and i'm sure i've mentioned him before. anyway, i was at the doctors' office after that class, waiting to get called in, and he walks in. now i had no idea if this guy would ever recognise me or remember that we're in the same (small class) together. so, he fills out his form and i try to read my course pack and not stare incessantly at him (he's so fucking hot, omg.). so, he goes up 'cos his number is called and i get called into the nurses office, and then she refers me to the doctor, so i am sitting out there in front of his office. time passes and i know i'm next, and then brown guy comes in and sits next to me. and talks to me about our mutual class. fuck. i want him now. lol. anyway, i get called into the doctors office, and i leave, and unfortunately don't say anything, but there was a little hesitation on both mine and his parts, so this could be interesting. i'm gonna try to talk to him next class. or at least stalk him a little afterwards.
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posted at 4:25 p.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
ha, dubya's little war is falling apart. this is funny. first its germany and france saying there is no need for war. then rumsfeld said that they didn't speak for europe. that european power has shifted east (oh i wonder how their british allies will love that view). well, now russia has spoken against war too. ha. and you think the eastern european bloc countries are gonna choose the u.s. over russia? doubtful.
but the best thing was what colin powell said yesterday. it totally showed exactly what bush's motivation for this little tirade in the desert is. he was all like (not exact quote) 'and after we take down saddam, we shall hold all the iraqi oilfields in trust for the iraqi people'. bullshit. what he means by this is that they shall take over the oilfields, suck out all the oil, and fifty years later decide perhaps the people are ready to get them back. boy, sounds like this has happened before... panama canal anyone?
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posted at 8:41 a.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
Wednesday, January 22, 2003
music right now: 'breathe' by télépopmusik (the song from the mitsubishi commercial - this track is ace, i swear!)
so, i fixed the image. we shall now see how long this lasts. *crosses fingers*
anyway, as i was lying in a tub of steaming water i came to the conclusion that had been rolling around my head for quite some time - i know exactly why i am so unhappy here sometimes. i am in school and have been for the past fourteen and a half years reading about people and their lives and how bloody wonderful they were and all this important stuff they did, when in the end what i really want right now is to be able to live MY life. ok, this seemed monumental when i was drinking my lemon tea and soaking my war wounds from my battle with influenza, alas time has taken its toll and i must suck on some lemon wedges and sleep before i die in my chair right here.
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posted at 2:37 a.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
Tuesday, January 21, 2003
random fact that i am posting for some completely random reason - hmv stands for 'her majesty's video'. yes, it is true (after all, the company is british).
btw, i still haven't figured out how to fix that g'damn picture at the top of the page. but since i'm sick and horrendously behind in classes, that shall have to wait a bit.
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posted at 9:58 p.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
Monday, January 20, 2003
i am sooooooooo sick right now... :-(
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posted at 10:39 p.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
Saturday, January 18, 2003
music right now: 'the scientist' by coldplay
first of all, this is the best song ever recorded. hands down. it makes me feel so incredibly sad (i have tears on my face at the moment), happy, melancholie, everything. its amazing. but tonight was so different for me. okay, i was gonna go to a house party with my friend mike, but we ended up at unity, which was okay. i was not drunk, but a little buzzed, and it was the most fun i've had there in a long time. i can't keep destroying myself by getting trashed and going to clubs and doing shit i regret. second of all, i saw nick there, and we was not with his bf, but with some friends, and for the first time in a lonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnggggg time i feel okay. i miss him a hell of a lot, and its not like 'omg, i want him to wrap his arms around me and kiss me' or anything like that, but i love him and i miss him and i would rather have him in my life as a friend than to never have that opportunity again. i've fucked a lot of things up in my life, and if i mess this up i will never be able to forgive myself. he's such an amazing person and even though i probably will never ever have the chance to be with him again in that way, just seeing his smile makes everything all good. and for the first time in a long time i feel happy after coming home from a night out. i feel like there has to be something out there besides death and destruction and shit. there has to be someone out there that i can connect with and love and be loved by. i just have to find them and be patient and not be such a fucking cunt along the way. i have to get to that point. i have to be able to say i was in love with someone and someone was in love with me. if i die, that has to be my mark on the world. because i know that everything else i do will pale in comparison. when you look at all the couples in the past how many ever years humans have existed, the ones that stick out were the ones who were truly in love... cleopatra and mark antony, romeo and juliet (although ficticious), etc... the great loves transcend time. okay, now i'm sounding a little too corny, but in the end, i want to say i had something like that. or else, however i die and whenever i die will be worth that much less.
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posted at 4:47 a.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
music right now: 'obstacle one' by interpol
since i'm such a whore, i stole this from rob's blog, and he got it from here. enjoy!
1. Where do you currently work?
at the mcgill bookstore
2. How many other jobs have you had and where?
i've worked at tim horton's (hereafter referred to as timmy ho's). and the bookstore. ya.
3. What do you like best about your job?
i can do shit after my managers leave and my boss loves me. and i was hired because my sole qualification is because i'm gay (my boss hired me as some form of appeasing grant, who happens to be gay, but had no idea why she was doing that).
4. What do you like least about your job?
it takes up time. and i fucking hate the bookstore drama that goes on. like there are so many different little cat fights going on. and the bookstore is the most inefficient place i have ever witnessed, its disgusting!
5. What is your dream job?
to be a travel writer who works solely in the south pacific.
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posted at 4:14 a.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
Thursday, January 16, 2003
i have the BEST idea for a remix - mix 'what's your flava?' by craig david together with 'put the needle on it' by dannii minogue. now if someone would only take my idea....
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posted at 9:44 p.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
i've decided who i want to marry. click here to find out who!
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posted at 6:14 p.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
i'm sorry, but there is no justification for this war except for bush and his oil baron friends to get richer off the oil in iraq, and the rest of the world to suffer.
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posted at 3:41 p.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
Wednesday, January 15, 2003
music right now: 'hurt' by johnny cash
do you know someone who unintentionally hurts you with 80% of what they say? i do, and it sucks, as you could imagine. i know this guy who i kind of got together with early last summer (before i was with nick) and i soon found out he is incredibly homophobic, even though he is gay. so, i sort of put an end to it. the thing is i liked him, but i felt like asking him 'why the hell do you like me?' because half the time he would be like 'oh kylie, she's such a bitch' or 'i fucking hate gay men. why do they act like that?' and i was thinking 'hello, look who you are talking to?!'. and of course the kylie comment made me feel like shit considering how much i love her. its like he was devaluing part of me in a way.
so, i kind of kept in touch with him over the past while, and i went to see 'the hours' again with him tonight. well, it started off horribly because i broke my bottle of absolut in the movie theatre (i'm making jell-o shots for vicky's party tomorrow night, and i had bought the bottle for that reason). like i dropped my bag, forgetting that it was in there, and crack! so i had a vodka soaked bag. and there went $20. anyway, i got rid of it and saw the movie. its incredibly emotional for me to watch it like i said before, mainly because i know what it feels like to have the emotions running through the stories, and it has things that make me rethink how i view the world. like i always looked at life as something that can neither be beautiful nor ugly. i never was able to stick those characteristics onto a seemingly opposite concept such as life. i don't know how i view life anymore.
like i've had my whole realm of assumptions completely thrown out the window in the past few months and i don't know which was is up anymore. its like drowning in the middle of a swimming pool and you can't see the surface. i'm stuck here without air and i am attempting to get help and swim and save myself and i keep getting caught in the water for longer and i'm waiting for my body to suck in the water as if it were air and end it. or i'm waiting to find the surface. the problem is i can't see it and life keeps getting darker and i wonder if there is such a thing. are we meant to sink or float?
so, after the movie i walked out, tears drying on my face, and he just looked at me like 'what were you crying about?'. i felt like screaming in his face. fuck. i don't understand him. then he says 'there's obviously something wrong with you' but not in an ass-hole type way, and there was, and still is. i don't know what. i do, but i don't. like i don't feel whole, i feel like part of me is missing, and nothing can help that. i fill it with all sorts of shit and nothing seems to fit. i want to know what is supposed to go there. i want to know what i am missing. and that i cannot find.
so, i'm going to bed now. i want to wake up tomorrow and not be frozen, literally and metaphorically.
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posted at 12:29 a.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
Tuesday, January 14, 2003
its official - hell has frozen over. i like the new shania twain song a lot for some reason, and its been running through my head for the past few days. damnit! 'i'm gonna getcha (good)' is right. argh!
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posted at 2:58 a.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
wow, interpol is so good. i've never really listened to them before, but they're definitely impressive.
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posted at 12:48 a.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
Sunday, January 12, 2003
i saw 'the hours' tonight, and i have been thinking about it alot. it was amazing. i haven't seen anything in a long time that has moved me or shaken me the way that movie did. i basically cried the whole thing. it felt like all the emotions, all the feelings, all the thought i've had over the past little while were taken from my head, mixed up, and put on the big screen. anyway, i'm having a hard time writing what i feel right now. i'll try again later.
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posted at 11:24 p.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
wow, i just saw the canadian national figure skating championships, and shaelyn bourne and victor kratz were amazing. like they got all 6.0s for their presentation marks. it was incredible. :-)
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posted at 5:50 p.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
hmmm, the pic won't work sometimes. working on that. i need to make this site more interesting. like i want to have more than one page. does anyone know of any good free hosts so i can get rid of that ugly banner? and does anyone know how to do javascript so i can get my webcam on here?
i'm afraid to go to sleep tonight. i don't know if i'll wake up. its so fucked up. i feel like my head is screwed on backwards and i want to fall over and crawl into some deep dark warm hole and never appear. oi.
have you ever just wanted to tell someone they look beautiful not because you want to be in love with them or have sex or whatever, but just because when you see their face, the way they act, the way they move, the aura that surrounds them - that it makes every horrid thing in the world seem insignificant by comparison? that just looking at them for a second brings such a calm over you that you want to exist in that space and emotion forever?
ugh, i feel like i need to vomit emotion all over my floor. i just want it out of me for a second. fuck this. there is no such thing as objective thought anymore. there never was. everything we do it subject to; is coloured by the thoughts swimming like goldfish through our empty heads. i am done. i need to fall. i want to swim in a warm ocean and not come up again. i want to look in the mirror and see absolutely no reflection instead of the feelings and emotions contained within the oval-ish shapes of my eyes. i am a resourse to be consumed and burned to the ground. i am me and a forest fire is raging inside like i've never seen before. i will place my head delicately on my pillow this morning and mourn all that i am and all that i lost along the way. the forest will fall to the ground in a procession of charred ashes and i will fall with them. wake me up tomorrow for russian. i won't be able to do it myself. i am gone.
ergh, um, ya. i'm going to bed. (this isn't a suicide note if that's what you're thinking. its a stream of consciousness that makes no sense).
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posted at 2:17 a.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
Thursday, January 09, 2003
music right now: 'tears from the moon' by conjure one ft. sinead o'connor
two things - one, i am wanting to get out of montréal. it is sooooooo fucking cold here right now that transferring to auckland next year seems more and more like something i want to do. this is probably a passing thing, but still i am so cold! i always say that i like the cold better than the warm, which to some extent is true, but i would give anything to be on a hot sunny beach right now. screw winter.
two, i have woken up very strangely the past two days. it feels like that my dreams are becoming more and more part of my reality. they've been extremely vivid, and i totally thought i was awake throughout them, and then when i wake up its like being plunged into ice cold water. its the oddest feeling i've had in a long time and i don't know what it means. i can't remember overly much about them, except one helped me choose which course to drop, and the other made me realise something about relationships. its not like these dreams are solving problems or anything, its just i wake up the next morning with an incredible shock, and something feels different, my mind feels different, and things proceed differently from the day before. i'm not sure what the hell to do. this is odd.
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posted at 5:10 p.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
go moby! read this:
"i'm kind of a simpleton, but could someone please explain homophobia to me?
apparently when i was attacked in boston it was a 'gay bashing' (which is kind of ironic seeing as i'm straight). i've asked this question before, but what in the world do people find so offensive about homosexuality? what about homosexuality is so upsetting to so many people? it's really odd, don't you agree?
some people say that it's not natural.
well, actually it is. lots of animals practice homosexuality. haven't you ever seen male dogs trying to hump other male dogs? bonobos monkeys? etc?
homosexuality is rampant in the animal kingdom. airplanes and condoms and televisions and cameras and laptop computers and eyeglasses and etc are unnatural. homosexuality actually seems to be quite natural and common.
and some people say that homosexuality offends their christian beliefs.
if you read the bible you will find some harsh words about homosexualilty. specifically in the old testament. where you will also find harsh words about tents with leprosy and women being unclean while they menstruate and the need to bring dead pigeons to a priest every time you ejaculate and so on.
christ never mentions homosexuality in the new testament.
i would never go so far as to say that god condones or condemns homosexuality. i would go so far as to say that christ definitely seems to condemn violence and hate and anger and arrogance and judgementalism. christ encouraged people to love one another. so seeing as christ never mentioned homosexuality in his list of what's evil in the world, and seeing as christ encouraged his followers to practice love and humility and tolerance it does seem a bit odd that people would justify homophobia and violence in the name of christ.
so we see that homosexuality is fairly natural and that homophobia is decidedly un-christian. so what other basis do people use to justify virulent homophobia?
why can't we all just agree to let adults enjoy sex and love in whatever consensual way they see fit?
and why, i ask again as i've been asking for a few years now, are homophobia and misogyny so much more culturally acceptable than racism and anti-semitism?
racism and anti-semitism are horrifying and despicable. homophobia and misogyny are equally horrifying and despicable. but so many people turn a blind or encouraging eye to homophobia and misogyny while decrying the evils of racism and anti-semitism.
disgusting prejudice is disgusting prejudice is disgusting prejudice.
it's as simple as that. there is no hierarchy of hateful prejudice.
to hate a black person because of their ethnicity is just as offensive as hating a woman for her gender is just as offensive as hating a gay person for their sexual orientation is just as offensive as hating a jew for their religious and cultural heritage.
prejudicial hate and violence are always despicable and offensive, it's as simple as that.
-moby"
music right now: 'dirrty' by christina aguilera ft. redman
well, i was too lazy to walk all the way to centre eaton last night to see 'rabbit-proof fence', so i walked a block and saw 'hable con ella' instead. it was soooooooooooooooo cute! omg, if you have a chance to see this movie, run! it should win best foreign film at the oscars this year (though 'y tu mamá también' probably will). the basic premise of the movie is there are two guys, each with an important woman in their lives who happen to be in comas. the movie then explores the interaction between these two men. i swear, it mixes comedy, drama, love story, and everything else into one amazing piece of film. pedro almodóvar is a genius.
speaking of genius... i finally decided to drop 'studies in old english'. why? well, it just doesn't fit into what i want to specialise in (minority literature), and the second reason is probably (most likely) extremely shallow of me, but sitting in that classroom, i could tell i was the coolest person there. it was scary. from the girl who kept on laughing at asinine things (such as the pronounciation of certain old english words), to the guy who wore a leather fanny pack and ran up to the prof at the end like he was enjoying it a little too much, i just felt strange. god, it was sad. and now i realise i am so shallow. oh well. anyway, i should stop pratting about and go and do some homework. ciao.
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posted at 5:57 p.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
music right now: 'beautiful blue' by holly mcnarland
well, its a new year, and i feel like writing a little something about the past year before its too late. its not in a big mind-emptying, cathartic, incoherent mess, but more of a list of things that i will always love/like/hate about the last year. enjoy!
ten songs that will remind me of 2002 (in no particular order):
10 - 'tightrope' by kylie minogue/ 'get over you' by sophie ellis-bextor
9 - 'come on die young' by mogwai
8 - 'just like a pill' by pink/ 'down boy' by holly valance
7 - 'please forgive me' by david gray
6 - 'take my hand' by dido
5 - 'beauty on the fire' by natalie imbruglia
4 - 'who do you love now/est-ce que tu m'aimes encore?' by dannii minogue ft. riva
3 - 'you and me' by the cranberries/ 'beautiful blue' by holly mcnarland
2 - 'it takes more' by ms dynamite
1 - 'the scientist' by coldplay
nine things i did in 2002 that i will always remember (not necessarily fondly):
9 - came out rather suddenly to my sperm donor (aka my 'father')
8 - whore'd it up at sky and unity many many many times
7 - saw tori amos/amanda marshall/one ton (twice) in concert!
6 - watched a billion amazing movies
5 - one word - STEREO!
4 - divers/cite
3 - broke up with/was broken up with three great guys
2 - vomitted all over on the way back from red deer during winter break
1 - the many times i went shopping with vicky/ariel/nick/everyone else i went shopping with
eight random things i probably said during 2002:
8 - ya tebya lyublyu (i love you)
7 - fuck you! (to my 'father')
6 - hurrah!
5 - crickey (not sure if this is spelled correctly)
4 - oi!
3 - whoever said orange is the new pink was seriously disturbed
2 - ______ (fill in the blank) is the best song ever!
1 - not liking kylie is blasphemy!
seven horrible combinations:
7 - beer and i
6 - soy milk and dill pickle chips
5 - kylie minogue and mogwai
4 - excess money and i
3 - political science and i
2 - working saturdays and clubbing the previous night
1 - jack daniels and smirnoff ice (i'm still not over that disaster!)
six tv shows i watched addictively:
6 - friends
5 - the simpsons
4 - degrassi: the next generation (for some reason i adore this show)
3 - er
2 - queer as folk
1 - absolutely fabulous
five movies i loved in 2002 (in order of preference):
5 - the lord of the rings: the two towers
4 - bowling for columbine
3 - about a boy
2 - wonderland (released in 1999)
1 - solaris
four things i came to realise in 2002:
4 - i absolutely adore hip hop and r'n'b. i came to this realisation in alberta where neither of these genres of music is played. ever.
3 - my new apartment is such a pile of rubbish. i fucking hate it!
2 - long distance relationships aren't out of the question, it just depends on the person
1 - english lit/russian is what i belong in, not poli sci, psych, or any number of other things
three classes i took in 2002 that i should never have taken:
3 - contemporary moral issues (mainly because of the prof)
2 - international politics of economic relations
1 - intro to behavioural neuroscience
two trips i took in 2002
2 - back to alberta during winter break
1 - boston during easter weekend
one cd i listened to more that a million times in 2002
1 - 'fever' by kylie minogue
well, that's it!
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posted at 5:32 p.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
Tuesday, January 07, 2003
music right now: 'in my place' by coldplay
what the fuck?! that avril lavigne twat has five grammy nominations.. wow, someone fucked up big time this year. she is such a bloody cunt. oi! i'm sorry, but album of the year should either go to coldplay or sigur rós. argh!! and natalie imbruglia was not nominated at all. the horror! well, at least she got engaged to a really hot guy (daniel johns from silverchair).
anyway, speaking of music, there is this really amazing song you should all hear. its a cover of 'with or without you' by this bloke from australia called hamish cowan. its from the 'looking for alibrandi' soundtrack, and i love it. its so amazing.
now, i have a problem. i have one class too many and i can't decide which i want to drop. the classes in limbo are:
a) canadian literature 2
b) studies in old english
c) image and text 2: pier paolo pasolini
each one has its good points. i want to take a. because there are two books being used that i want to read (the english patient, and the underpainter). i like b. because i basically will learn how to translate old english, and there is no final. and c. is cool because the material is interesting, it keeps with my 'take one class discussing a homosexual topic per term' motto, and there is a really hot guy in it (who i refer to as brown guy because he wears brown all the time, as i found out when he was in my terrestrial planets class last summer). and the professor has hit on me, so that works to my advantage. i am thinking about this tonight, and i think i shall decide by tomorrow.
and i'm seeing 'rabbit proof fence' in a few hours. hurrah!
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posted at 5:09 p.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
Sunday, January 05, 2003
music right now: 'remind me' by röyksopp
well, i'm back at home in montreal, and not a minute too soon. fuck, alberta drove me crazy. i spent the first three days there being depressed and moping about my mum's house. how fun. why was i depressed? well, still not over being single, even though it has been two months. oh well. i am over it now. though i wouldn't mind a relationship, i'm not freaking out. i just needed to get it out of my system, i think. ya.
so, i didn't get a huge amount of stuff for christmas, but i wasn't exactly wanting a million different things. i got money, a cd ('grandes exitos' by shakira), socks, and a few other things. then on boxing day i bought the cutest pair of shoes from aldo (on sale too!). they're black and the toes are turned up a little, and there are two silver bands on either side of each shoe. i love them. hurrah! and i bought '( )' by sigur rós, which is the most amazing album i have ever heard, and two books, 'coke machine glow' by gordon downie, and 'metropolis 16 - 29' by robert fitterman (they're both poetry collections).
but the best part of being there was the mini road-trip i took with some friends to red deer (about two hours south of fort saskatchewan/northern edmonton). one of my friends, ken, goes to college there, and we decided to go down and get trashed for super cheap (a case of 4 smirnoff ice in alberta is like 7 bucks! insane!). anyway, we got super trashed and i puked on the way home, which was not exactly the highlight, but the fact that it was a road trip (it took us three and a half hours to get there because of the weather) was the main fun part of it. one thing bothered me through much of that and the rest of my holiday. ken kept on hitting on me the entire time. even in front of his girlfriend. it annoyed me mainly because i don't want any guy to touch me unless they mean it, and i've said that before, and he keeps on doing it. now, i think mainly because this sort of thing is the only acceptable way for 'str8' guys to experiment sexually in alberta is the reason he (and other guys in alberta) did it, but it drove me nuts. and because i didn't exactly hate the attention, i felt like yelling 'either fucking kiss me now or leave me the fuck alone!' at him. argh!
i saw a few movies ('the deep end', 'the lord of the rings: the two towers', 'bollywood/hollywood', and 'boys don't cry' [again] ) all of which were good, but 'the two towers' was pretty amazing. not the best movie this year, but wow, it really got my pulse racing. 'the return of the king' is gonna be one hell of a finale when i see it next winter. i saw it on imax at silvercity in west edmonton mall (this theatre has a fire breathing dragon hanging from the ceiling, and it actually shoots fire every so often), but imax did nothing special. i thought it would be sweet like all those movies i saw on imax when i was young, but it was just a bigger screen. oh well.
and i watched 'the adventures of sebastian cole' again on the telly. i adore that movie more and more every time i see it. i think its the best coming of age movie i've ever seen. its fantastic. and i watched a tonne of muchmusic. i swear, i had that channel on non-stop (when i wasn't addictively watching 'changing rooms'). yay! and i saw the saddest music video ever. it was the video for 'hurt' by johnny cash. he does a cover of the nine inch nails song, and watching the video is like watching him die. its so sad. he's so despondant in the song.
and now i'm home. the flight back sucked ass, and i am exhausted, so i shall go to bed. i have school and work and errands and a bunch of other things i have to do tomorrow. so much for sleeping. ciao.
Reading: The Shock Doctrine: The Rise of Disaster Capitalism
Naomi Klein God Is Not Great: How Religion Poisons Everything
Christopher Hitchens Copenhagen
Time Out City Guides
Seeing: Juno
Jason Reitman Annie Hall
Woody Allen There Will Be Blood
Paul Thomas Anderson
Listening to: Boxer
The National The Fountain: OST
Clint Mansell In Rainbows
Radiohead
