I'm so stupid sometimes. No, I don't mean that in a self-deprecating way, more in a disappointed way. I don't understand my boyfriend, I really don't. He's hostile towards me. He never seems to accept that I don't feel the same way as him, that I have my own opinion. He berates me for it. I just feel like he wants me to fall in line, to agree with him and move on.

I know things are coming to an end, but I guess I've gotten better at denying it. And that's where the stupidity comes in. My senses have become so dulled in this relationship that I can't even see the forest for the trees. We aren't compatible. We want different things out of life. I want him to pursue his interests, on his own if need be. I want to be able to do and see the things I want to. I want to travel without him. He has that freedom and I want him to go. But he won't accept that, he won't accept that I have different needs, that I view the world differently.

I've put London on the backburner in my mind for the past little while, but maybe that is a bad idea. It's time to stop taking it, I'm done being walked all over.

... posted at 10:56 p.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...

back from an extended hiatus

Reading:
The Shock Doctrine: The Rise of Disaster Capitalism
Naomi Klein
God Is Not Great: How Religion Poisons Everything
Christopher Hitchens
Copenhagen
Time Out City Guides

Seeing:
Juno
Jason Reitman
Annie Hall
Woody Allen
There Will Be Blood
Paul Thomas Anderson