i found this on mikey's livejournal and i think it's kind of cool. so, without delay, here it is.
Book!meme:
Take the list. Remove the authors who aren't on your shelves, replace them with ones who are, and keep the list at ten names.
bret easton ellis
anthony burgess
peter høeg
irvine welsh
seamus heaney
gordon downie
hillary rodham clinton
naomi klein
aldous huxley
a.s. byatt
Music!meme:
Take the list. Remove the musicians who aren't in your CD collection, replace them with ones who are, and keep the list at ten names.
Dido
manic street preachers
Ani Difranco
placebo
powderfinger
silverchair
sarah mclachlan
tori amos
björk
sigur rós
movies!meme:
Take the list. Remove the videos/DVDs that aren't in your collection, replace them with ones that are, and keep the list at ten names.
the beach
sous le sable
cast away
legend
the hours
to wong foo, thanks for everything julie newmar
sex and the city: fourth series
felicity: series one and two
wonderland
24 hour party people
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posted at 11:25 p.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
music right now: 'see the sun' by dido
i finally bought a new cd. it's been probably about eight or nine months since i've actually bought cd. i think they are a total waste and obsolete, but i love dido, so i bought her new album. i'm not totally happy with it, i think i was hoping for more of a faithless-like sound. i love her collaborations with faithless (such as 'one step too far'), but it's more downbeat than that. i'm not complaining, i think i need events in my life to take on some of the songs before it's endeared to me. one song stands out for me though - the secret song right after 'see the sun'. i think it is called 'the closer you get', but it is amazing. i associate it with someone already, which is strange because normally that doesn't happen unless i am in a relationship. anyway, overall i am glad i bought the album, it is like me telling dido how much i love her voice and some of her stuff. i need to let the album grow on me though. after all, it's the first day i've had it.
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posted at 11:08 p.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
Sunday, September 28, 2003
i just saw 'lost in translation' with vicky, and it is by far the best movie i have seen this year. i cannot describe how it makes me feel, but i am absolutely in love with it. i am going to go see it again this week if i have the time.
the whole concept of the movie reminds me of the weekend i met lauro. after he left that first time and i had time to think about what happened, part of me wanted to just leave it as is. we didn't and the relationship fell apart after two and a half months. that first weekend was perfect, everything was just the way it should be, every second felt like it was an eternity, it was perfect. everything after was just us trying to recreate that feeling over and over again. it was a perfect weekend, the rest pales by comparison. we should have just left it as is.
i think it's a sign of maturity when you recognise your failings in life yet not regret them. i don't regret lauro at all. i just realise it was best left in that first weekend.
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posted at 9:54 p.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
music right now: 'precious heart (lush remix)' by tall paul vs. INXS
the worst thing in the world is not being in love with someone and them not loving you back, it's being in love with someone and knowing that they love you, but that it can never be...
i still love jeff. but it keeps fading from day to day. i know i'll always love that boy until the day i die, but it will never be the same.
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posted at 2:33 a.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
Saturday, September 27, 2003
music right now: 'desenchantée (kate ryan mix)' by mylène farmer
i just rembered, ER on thursday was fabo. adding parminder nagra to the cast was a great move and i LOVE her character. it was a shock though when the call came in and they said that luka had died. i was in tears (not only because goran visnjic is gorgeous but also because he plays my fav character, along with dr. weaver).
and coupling was shite! they have ruined it! the british version is the funniest comedy ever, and now NBC has butchered it!
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posted at 9:58 p.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
music right now: 'porcelain hands' by strawpeople
i've been looking on this website, nzflatmates.co.nz for a little while now, gauging how expensive it would be to live in auckland, and i just found the perfect place. unfortunately it won't be available in two years when i'm looking for one, but i sooooo hope i find something like this. it's just off of k rd. which is a great location (near the uni and ponsonby and downtown), and the flatmates (two of them) are gay. anyway, i am crossing my fingers that i find something like this when i start looking for real.
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posted at 8:19 p.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
music right now: 'precious heart (lush remix)' by tall paul vs INXS
i feel gross right now. ugh...
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posted at 1:56 a.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
Thursday, September 25, 2003
music right now: 'fuck the pain away' by peaches
i went on my first blind date tonight. all i can say is it was fabulous. what happened was last friday vicky went to a dior thing where she got her make-up done. it was done by sebastien, and she got his number after talking to him about me. so flash forward past telephone tag, hastily made plans, to the date tonight.
i met him at the erotic (roddick) gates on mcgill's campus, and we walked to a small resto on crescent. the dinner was good, and we talked and talked and talked. he is soo cute. he has a beautiful smile and amazing eyes. and we're going to see a movie sometime this weekend or the coming week, so i am sooooo excited. :-) yay!
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posted at 11:07 p.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
Tuesday, September 23, 2003
i had a strange dream last night. it basically had two parts that i can remember.
the first part was in new zealand (as i think it might look like), near christchurch. i was there with my late 20th century british fiction professor (who happens to be a kiwi), and we were discussing coronation street. i can't remember much, but then we also started discussing the news, and part of it was about an article i read yesterday in the new zealand herald about a kiwi singer, hayley westenra, and how she broke records on the british classical charts this past week. plus i was speaking in a new zealand accent the entire time.
the second part of the dream was me playing with my new minidisc player (which i do not have in actuality). i remember not being able to find the minidisc in the box it came in, and my old neighbour from when i was like seven or eight was working at the store and she found it for me.
so, i can draw two conclusions from these dreams:
one, i want a minidisc player.
two, i should stop reading forms for immigration to new zealand before i go to sleep. i was reading the requirements for the student visa, and trying to find a way that i could become a permanent resident of the country due to my familial ties in auckland.
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posted at 2:33 p.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
Monday, September 22, 2003
music right now: 'surrounded' by chantal kreviazuk
ugh, i hate being in my flat alone at night. it's so lonely here without kyle. i like going to sleep hearing his music, it makes the place seem lived in.
i went to another family function. two observations: one, my 'father's' family has to drink a lot in order to be able to stand one another, and two, they really do love one another even if they have to be intoxicated to deal with one another's neuroses. i love my cousin chelsea, she's fab. we're going to hang out more, it's nice to know that not all my family members are crazy. and even the ones i thought were (aka my uncle carmen) tend to surprise you in ways least expected. and my aunt gay is coming on tuesday from alberta for a visit! i'm excited because it will be like seeing my mum (she's my mum's sister and they are very much alike).
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posted at 1:52 a.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
Sunday, September 21, 2003
music right now: 'beautiful' by sarah brightman
i have the hick-ups.
i just went to a party where two of my ex's were.
i'm single and happy with it.
i have a friend (well, best friend) who got me a boys number last night and i don't mind that one bit.
i feel like i am so romantic and that i have no one to share that with.
i am tired.
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posted at 12:38 a.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
Saturday, September 20, 2003
music right now: 'never grow old' by the cranberries
last night was interesting to say the least. it was my aunt's 50th birthday party and i took kyle as my date. it was so strange, the whole family was so good about it. i did not expect anything like that. it was weird being accepted by people i never thought would accept me. it's funny to because it's like kyle is part of the family now even though we aren't together lol. oh well.
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posted at 3:23 p.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
Friday, September 19, 2003
i got my birthday present from ariel tonight. you may think i am a huge loser, but it's the greatest thing ever! it's a bilingual translation of beowulf done by seamus heaney (ireland's poet laureate). it's fabo and i am sooooo excited about it!
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posted at 1:18 a.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
Thursday, September 18, 2003
where have all the atheist boys gone?
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posted at 12:39 a.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
Wednesday, September 17, 2003
well you learn something every day. i had no idea that ashley mcisaac is gay... now if only david usher was, we'd all be happy :-)
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posted at 8:32 p.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
music right now: 'under the milky way' by strawpeople
well i'm at a point where i've figured out exactly what i want and where i am going after mcgill. i did the same thing in high school and well, i'm here now. so i have my eye on the prize and i just have to keep pushing for it.
i have three choices, each one good, though ultimately i can narrow it down to just two if need be.
one: grad school in sydney at uni of nsw. this is probably the most expensive option because sydney is a very expensive city to live in. i have friends in syd, so that is a plus, but as well i don't have a specific programme here i would go into. so this one would be eliminated. but cronulla is near sydney, and my friend daniel goes on about how it is the greatest beach in australia. but still... i can't choose a city/uni 'cos of a beach, can i?
two: grad school in auckland at the uni of auckland. this is my number one choice at the moment for a number of reasons. the tuition is considerably cheaper than at other universities (about $7000 canadian vs. like $10000 canadian), i can take a one year honours programme to get my BA (honour), then go into the masters programme. plus they have a good russian department, so if i decide to do russian rather than english i can always do that. as well, the canadian dollar is much stronger than the new zealand dollar (about 77 canadian cents = 1 new zealand dollar) so that is an advantage. i also have cousins in auckland (very close ones who i know personally), so i wouldn't be there alone. plus it's new zealand! it's quite possible that i could get citizenship a lot sooner by being sponsored by a family member. the downside is that the plane fare to auckland is very expensive. but it is possible to fly to syndey instead and take a cheap flight to auckland, especially with the whole airfare war going between quantas, air nz, emirates and pacific blue. that might be an option.
three: this was my traditional plan - grad school at the uni of queensland in brisbane. the upside is that brisbane is considerably cheaper than sydney in terms of living costs, it's super close to the gold coast and surfer's paradise (yay for amazing beaches and hot aussie blokes!). the uni of queensland has a great programme that i could go into in public relations, which i find more exciting than becoming a professor, which is what i would probably do if i go to the uni of auckland. a downside is the tuition is considerably more expensive and i don't know anyone in brissy and the nearest person to me would be daniel and he's in syd, so it's a bit of a distance. and brissy is more expensive than auckland, which kind of sucks. but there is an ikea, where there are none in new zealand. that is a plus :-) lol
so yes, i have a while to decide where i am going. next summer is all about saving for my plane ticket/furniture/a new telly, etc... because i can't take many electronic things down under. everything is different in terms of format and stuff, so it just wouldn't work.
mmm i want 'kath and kim' on dvd and it's pissing me off. argh! why can't i have an australian dvd player?!
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posted at 11:15 a.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
Tuesday, September 16, 2003
maybe to be lost is ultimately to be found...
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posted at 12:03 a.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
Saturday, September 13, 2003
oh man, do i have the craziest little adventures when i am drunk. anyway, last night after drinking a bottle of 'settler's cove' 2001 sheraz cabernet sauvignon (from australia), i decided to go to stereo. now of course i had to buy gum on my way, so i went to the 25 (?) hour depanneur on parc, and then walked down to the corner of bleury and ste-catherine in order to take the bus to the village. now i had no idea if it was coming because there were these weird ass things covering the signs, so i walked to stereo instead of waiting. on the way, just across the street from les foufounes electiques these three people stop me, two blokes and a girl. they asked me if there were any strip clubs open and if i knew where to pick up women at 3.00 in the morning. i said that i was gay, and that the only place i knew of was club super sexe (not from personal experience) and i pointed them in the right direction. now that wasn't the funny part, the funny part was i talked to them in an australian accent. i was SOOOOOOOO good at it too! hhaha
stereo was fun. i was scared i wouldn't see ian there, so i got a guru and sat down to wait and see if he would show up, which he did. it's so funny because i saw him from across the dance floor simply because of his smile. i could notice that a million miles away, he has such a unique smile. anyway, i found him and ya, the rest is history.
coming back on the metro this morning i think i freaked a few people out. it's not like i was doing anything strange, i just was still high and i was trying to look as inconspicuous as possible. guess that didn't work lol.
i went shopping today and bought a diesel tank top and glasses from le chateau. they're sweet. i had a panic attack in the store, so i am not sure if it was because i was so cracked out, or just because i was in a crowd. i've been having them a lot lately. i had one on thursday in style xchange and that was no fun. i just hope this isn't a trend that will continue on.
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posted at 5:00 p.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
i learnt the most romantic thing tonight. i heard about this couple who were separated for the summer, and every night they would listen to the same song when they went to bed. this song, 'the scientist' by coldplay, was the one thing that linked them when they were apart. that is what romance is. it's not flowers, candy, random snogs in a coat cupboard, it's sharing something like that every night across distances.... i've never known romance quite like that.
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posted at 2:22 a.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
Friday, September 12, 2003
music right now: 'hurt' by johnny cash
two deaths in one day. kinda sad if you think about it. i never was much of a fan of johnny cash. but then i saw the video for his cover of 'hurt' last christmas on the wedge (thank you muchmusic) and i cried my eyes out. i challenge anyone to watch that video and not feel like you've been stabbed in the chest...
but john ritter. man, i grew up watching him. i never had a father, and in a strange way he was a father figure to me. when i heard he died i nearly choked on my own tears. it's strange that i could cry for someone i don't even know, but fuck he's only two years older than my aunt gay (my mum's sister). i guess when your number is up it really is up. i remember when i was younger me and my brother murray rented his movie 'stay tuned' and watched it over and over and over again. i don't know why, but we loved that movie. i just think it puts my whole mortality into perspective. i could die at any moment, so i might as well make the ones i have left count.
we'll miss you guys, i hope you find the peace you deserve....
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posted at 11:57 p.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
i cannot believe john ritter died. this is quite the shock...
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posted at 11:11 a.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
rest in peace johnny cash....
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posted at 9:13 a.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
add 'veronica guerin' to my must see list. and i must say that cate blanchett is the most beautiful woman in the world hands down.
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posted at 2:03 a.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
i fucking hate first years. the boys are a bunch of twats. well not all of them. but some of them are ignorant little fuckers and i want to spit in their faces. i was at pita pit like ten minutes ago and some drunk first year boy was harassing me because i wanted a lot of mayo on my pita. i should have turned to him and said 'yes i like the white stuff, and yes i suck cock and swallow you twat.'
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posted at 12:46 a.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
Thursday, September 11, 2003
add 'coffee and cigarettes' by jim jarmusch to my 'must see movie' list. so far it has 'me without myself', 'elephant', 'underworld' and 'lost in translation' on it...
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posted at 3:46 p.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
Tuesday, September 09, 2003
is it weird for me to want to see 'triumph of the will' by leni riefenstahl? i've heard so much about it, and the fact that it is one of the most influential films of all time makes me want to see it all that much more.
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posted at 11:24 p.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
Sunday, September 07, 2003
music right now: 'sleeping with ghosts' by placebo
i wonder if this empty feeling i constantly feel creeping through me has more to do with the fact that i am alone, or the fact that i am scared this will last forever.
i was rejected again it seems. this guy was ok, but nothing special. he kinda freaked me out in a few ways. well for one he carries a gun because his father is in the mafia, and two, he is a muslim and plans on marrying a woman because his religion tells him to. i don't know, sometimes that religion scares me. i think it's cool that he has something like that in his life, it's just islam isn't the most tolerant religion and it's a bit frightening in ways. but ya. i've been rejected again.
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posted at 4:01 p.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
Saturday, September 06, 2003
ugh, i feel like shit today. i ended up not even getting to stereo. i want to vomit and die, argh!
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posted at 5:30 p.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
Friday, September 05, 2003
my first year of university was about finding the person that i am on the inside by meeting people that accept me for me without question or judgment.
my second year of university was about being comfortable with myself as i saw through my own eyes and adjusting to the life that i have lead and will lead in the future.
my third year of uni will be about reconnecting with the people that have seen me through to this point and will always be there no matter what happens.
my fourth year of uni will be about doing things for the last time, saying goodbye to amazing friends and coming to terms with the fact that i am an adult and i have to make the most of the years i have left. invincibility is a fallacy of adolescence, determination is a truth of adult-hood. i am here to stay, i will make it through everything, i am stronger than i think. it's in our hands as björk says, it always was, and now i have to do something with those hands.
i remember in grade eleven i had a teacher, mrs. jensen-hengstler, who to this day still remains a hero of mine. she told me 'make your mark clinton, make your mark'. at the time i thought she was telling me that i had the potential to do great things with my life. in grade ten i had a teacher, mrs. gibeau, who said that she saw me as someone who would do something amazing and perhaps be a martyr for some great cause. i doubt that martyrdom statement, but i want to do something big. i want my name written in the stars so i am never forgotten for that is true immortality. i may die a thousand deaths, suffer horrific defeats and be wounded by those closest to me, but if i do something that not only changes my life but touches someone elses then my life has been worth something. immortality is mine, i just need to realise that.
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posted at 11:07 p.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
music right now: 'flight 643' by dj tiësto
it's friday night - that means it's time to get fucked up! hahaha. i had two double espressos straight at work, and now i am drinking red bull and vodka. it's gonna be a great night. this whole week has been building to this night!
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posted at 10:47 p.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
music right now: 'white flag' by dido
i LOVE this song so much. yay dido!
anyway, the lack of anything new written on here is due to the fact that my schedule this week in terms of work and school is absolutely fucking crazy. i have five classes, and i think i like them all. today i only had one, pre-world war two soviet lit, and all the prof did was explain (in russian) the reasons why the october revolution is not the true start of the soviet literature age. it was interesting, but i was having a bit of a problem understanding.
anyway, i am too knackered to write much else. night.
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posted at 12:04 a.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
Monday, September 01, 2003
since the link to the lyrics of 'lover's spit' by the broken social scene (who happen to be coming to montreal this month and i am dying to see!) don't seem to fit into the tagboard, here are the lyrics. enjoy!
lover's spit by the broken social scene
All these people drinking lover's spit
They sit around and clean their face with it
And they listen to teeth to learn how to quit
tied to a night they never met
You know it's time
that we grow old and do some shit
I like it all that way
All these people drinking lover's spit
Swallowing words while giving head
They listen to teeth to learn how to quit
tied to a night they never met
You know it's time
that we grow old and do some shit
I like it all that way
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posted at 4:16 p.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
music right now: 'hurt' by johnny cash
i don't give a shit what anyone says, justin timberlake did NOT deserve to win the best male video at the mtv video awards, johnny cash was robbed. that song/video breaks my heart every time i see it, and i cannot believe he didn't win.
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posted at 3:50 p.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
music right now: 'crepuscule' by saez
so, i messaged this boy on face-pic because i thought he was cute. he responded and i was hoping who knows, to like meet him some time, whatever. anyway, he messaged kyle and kyle had him come over tonight. he's super cute. but he's kyles. this sucks. i was afraid of that with brad, how i would like a guy, have him come over and then bamm, he would like brad. well it happened with kyle. joel came over too. i like him, and i would want to see where things go, but it just doesn't seem like that will happen ever. we click SOOOOOOO well, we're on the same intellectual level and it's great because we sat there tonight having long conversations about movies, björk, etc... but it just didn't seem like he was interested on any other level. i'm so sick of finding people who can only see me in a friendship level. it's downright depressing.
kyle said tonight that i am a really really strong person. i don't understand how that can be when i feel everything falling down around me.
Reading: The Shock Doctrine: The Rise of Disaster Capitalism
Naomi Klein God Is Not Great: How Religion Poisons Everything
Christopher Hitchens Copenhagen
Time Out City Guides
Seeing: Juno
Jason Reitman Annie Hall
Woody Allen There Will Be Blood
Paul Thomas Anderson
Listening to: Boxer
The National The Fountain: OST
Clint Mansell In Rainbows
Radiohead
