i think the major reason why i love the 'scarlet's walk' album by tori amos is because the album as a cohesive whole is about movement. she wrote the album while on a road trip shortly after 9/11 and the movement aspect of that creation has stuck with it in my mind. i used to listen to the album when i would go visit lauro in ithaca, and those songs have indelible images from those trips embued in them. and every time i feel movement in my life i come back to this album, finding more in it to help me in my travels.
three months left in montreal. three months left to figure out where i am going in life.
this is the last post i will write on here. it's been coming for a while, but i'm pretty much done. i will have my own website sometime in the near future (when i find the time/learn how to build one), so it's not the end. this was always meant to be just a log of what it was like for me in my four years of uni. and so it has.
'i was here...'.
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posted at 1:22 a.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
Tuesday, January 25, 2005
music right now: 'lift me up' by moby
so much good music right now. i've finally heard the new single from moby ('lift me up') and wow, it's his best single in a long time. and i finally got around to listening to the rest of 'folklore' by nelly furtado and it's actually quite an amazing album. so many songs going in different directions. normally such a scattered collection of songs wouldn't necessarily be great, but she managed to pull it off.
i watched '24 hour party people' again last night with mike. every time i see that film something new comes to the surface. there is sooooo much in that film that it would take years to decipher it all. i've gotten most of it (after all, that was like my 20th viewing of that specific film), but there are still little things i haven't caught onto yet.
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posted at 11:44 a.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
Wednesday, January 19, 2005
lately i have been reading a lot of artistic manifestos and i have begun to wonder why they have disappeared. i want a manifesto. there should be manifesto chic, it should be a new trend. that's it, i am starting it!
i haven't written in a while, and that creative block i think has been lifted through this injection of new ideas and new views. today i read this interesting article about the suprematist movement in russian art (not white supremacism, but suprematism). it was an avant-garde movement around the 1910s and advocated the elimination of art as a means of conveyance of the object as being the subject in art, and letting art itself be both the object and the subject. instead of copying, viewing from a different angle, chopping up and recomposing (cubism), or altering perception (impressionism), suprematism held up the idea of moving forward, not looking backward in artistic movement. rather than being held accountable to the ties of the past, the key is to move forward and let the colours and movement and brush-strokes (it mainly applied to painting), take the forms they wish to take on the canvas, and this should be the object and the subject. whereas futurism looked to the future and held up artiface, in the exemplification of mechanical creations. instead of looking to the past in order to hold up an object, it merely looked to the future. i like this suprematist line of thinking, and i wish i could somehow incorporate that into the way that i write. at the moment i am flooded by so many ideas, so many trajectories that i wish i knew where to start.
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posted at 10:09 p.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
the past few weeks i have found some of the most interesting music that i have heard in quite a while. i blame this on iTunes radio. i listened to this ambient station and all of a sudden i kept hearing these amazing songs. so, here is my current playlist, some from that station, others randomly found.
- 'couches in alleys' by styrofoam ft. ben gibbard
- 'gold mine gutted' by bright eyes
- 'america' by m83
- 'old habits die hard' by mick jagger and dave stewart
- 'teach me how to fight' by junior boys
- 'sunday nite health' by longwave
- 'gone' by m83
etc....
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posted at 1:27 a.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
Monday, January 17, 2005
i watched the golden globes tonight. one word: boring! i just didn't care about who was nominated and such. only one of my four favourite films from last year ('eternal sunshine of the spotless mind') even had any nominations, so for me it was just not entertaining. my other three favourites ('garden state', 'code 46', and 'we don't live here anymore') weren't even lucky enough to get any recognition. blah. and what the hell is with this 'desperate housewives' thing?
maybe i am just a little too hooked on this 'battlestar galactica' thing. i've seen the first two episodes of the new series (never saw the original nor the mini-series), but man i am hooked. i haven't seen a programme like this in a long time. it's compelling. it's about the drama in between the characters, not pretty special effects. i never thought that sci-fi was much more than pulp fiction, but it's nice to see it elevated beyond that.
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posted at 1:50 a.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
Thursday, January 13, 2005
kath and kim was hilarious tonight. it was one of the few episodes i have not seen, and it reaffirms why it's my favourite programme. sooooo funny. just the scene where kim keeps asking for a cardonnay instead of a chardonnay... priceless. i haven't laughed that much in a long time (not probably since the last episode of the second series when kim is having eponnee ray).
it's nice to just laugh and not have any reason not to. i miss those times, they are fleeting.
montreal seems to be saying goodbye to me in various ways. i saw my ex-bf nick's sister yesterday. she was the sister that always liked me. i barely recognised her. it's funny, she's in mcgill now. i feel so fucking old. lol.
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posted at 11:41 p.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
Tuesday, January 11, 2005
music right now: 'pledge of allegiance' by matthew good
long week. it's only tuesday. i am going to be crawling to the finish line this time, i do say.
earlier i was listening to sounds of saturn's rotation. it's like a heart beat, so primal, yet the sound, which sounds bizarre and strangely detached from me, stirs up something nameless. just this longing, this feeling to be floating in the stars again. we all came from them, we'll all return to them.
not sure if i have the energy, the patience, the drive for certain things anymore. relationships, do i really need one? don't know, don't think so. open to the prospect, just too damned exhausted to leap at the chance.
something keeps drawing me back, like being pulled by fishing line. i see the almost invisible cord leading me back to the beginning, completing the circular motion, and yet i just go with it, not caring, denying. we're different, right?
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posted at 11:38 p.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
Sunday, January 09, 2005
i'm lovin this iTunes store. it's great, i can buy music and it downloads sooooo quickly. so much better than downloading it on eDonkey. plus it's legal. wooooo!
last night was a lot of fun. i never really thought that it was gonna be fun, but damn, that was a good party :-D
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posted at 11:29 a.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
Friday, January 07, 2005
so i was on bbc and they had an article about the big bands to look out for in 2005. i already know of a few of them, which is really cool. they are: bloc party, the bravery, and the dears. and apparently the colour of fire are set to hit it big too. i always love catching onto bands before they hit it really big, it kind of feels like i discovered them first in a way. that happened to me with coldplay and ever since then i guess i have been waiting to see if any of the other bands i like will burst out. seems like some are going to.
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posted at 1:24 p.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...
Tuesday, January 04, 2005
music right now: 'fade into you' by mazzy star
you know what i hate? finding the perfect apartment a few months too early. when i am bored i look for apartments in toronto just out of curiousity. and a few times i have come across this one specific apartment in the right area with the right price and damnit. lol.
Reading: The Shock Doctrine: The Rise of Disaster Capitalism
Naomi Klein God Is Not Great: How Religion Poisons Everything
Christopher Hitchens Copenhagen
Time Out City Guides
Seeing: Juno
Jason Reitman Annie Hall
Woody Allen There Will Be Blood
Paul Thomas Anderson
Listening to: Boxer
The National The Fountain: OST
Clint Mansell In Rainbows
Radiohead
