music right now: 'taxi ride' by tori amos

last night was interesting to say the least and now i am left to think about it. i don't know, i have so much going through my mind at the moment and it just feels so odd to take it all into perspective. so i had this grand plan to get to unity before 11.00 so i wouldn't have to pay cover charge. well that did not work at all. i got there at a little after midnight because i was having too much fun just chatting away and listening to music. hahaha i think i must have talked to my friend zach for four or five hours straight yesterday, it was great. that boy is insane. i swear, we think a lot alike. too bad he lives in north dakota. but still, you get the picture. just before i left i got a call from lauro asking about lesbian bars in the village for his friend libby and her girlfriend, so i told him about magnolia, and then we planned to meet up in the bamboo room at unity later on.

so at about 11.45 i ran for the m?tro. of course i got there like one minute after one had passed in the direction i was going, so i had to wait for the next one. in my slightly inebriated state i read more of 'disgrace' by j.m. coetzee. it's such an absolutely amazing novel. it's absorbing, enthrawling, frighteningly good. so i read a bit while waiting for the m?tro and on the m?tro to beaudry. i got to unity and it was so freaking packed. that was not good. i started to have a panic attack and i was pretty sure i was going to leave. i bought a drink, hoping that it would settle me down (big mistake, i bought rev which only made me more panic-y). i was walking along a catwalk and some guy asked me something, but then he introduced himself. his name was something like marlon and he's from toronto. we went and sat for a bit and he told me that he is a singer/songwriter (probably something he tells boys in order to get laid, but possibly not), and that he is mixing his first album right now. that impressed me. then he told me he was 29. he looked 23 or 24. he said i was 'super cute' (well thanks, but that seems to be a stock comment these days). he kissed me and said he'd come back in a bit. i left after he did and went to look for lauro because i just wanted to hang with someone i knew. after a while of searching i found him. it was like being hit in the face with a brick, seeing him at first, simply because it was the first time i had seen him since we broke up, and because he was the boy i was with last valentines day. but it was good to see him. we danced. his friend mark was there (he's kinda cute i determined) with his ex-boyfriend (who would NOT stop staring at me, lauro had to grab me and dance with me at one point to stop it). so ya, at one point lauro was like 'lets dance for old times sake' and we did. and a whole bunch of stuff came rushing back. it was weird. i thought i was going to go to unity with friends and just see lauro and be in like a group. but it was basically him and i, with mark and jon off dancing somewhere close by.

as the club closed i said goodbye and he was going to call me today and i was going to go for lunch with him and his friends before they leave. i woke up too late. but we are going to keep in touch.

and now i have to face sunday all over again. i hate this.

... posted at 2:17 p.m. by gleefully gloomy. ...